Friday, November 24, 2017

My no 4.

Assalamualaikum semua :)

Wuah, lama bangat tidak berblog. Tak, bukan lupa password blogger k noks >o<. Eleh macam lah ada sape peduli. Dulu, kalau lama tak update blog, ada juga yang bertanya kenapa hakak nak update blog. Bila hakak nak update blog. Now, who really cares? T_T

Eleh sesedih plak, even aku pon tak blogwalking ke blog orang lain, ada hati nak orang baca blog kau ciare. Who do you think you are? Retis kah. Mihmih.

Anyway, I don't care who will read this (might be no one :p) because I simply want to blog about something. Yup, my 4th pregnancy. Now, I'm already in my 3rd trimester. Alhamdulillah. Ok terpaksa make that a big statement. Biasalah, as expected, my morning-afternoon-evening-night sickness did an awesome job T___T. I cried everyday. At least, I cried in my heart every second of it. From 5 to 25 weeks. Thank you for being a good infant in there and be strong for me. Because, your mother is not that strong. I always defeated by emotions and negative feelings. I know, not a good behavior for the pregnancy, but what can I do. Hormones win, BIG TIME. And it still winning most of the time.

What the heck are you talking about ciare? Oh GOD, I know I know. Forgive me. But technically, this is the-pregnant-me. I am not exactly me. If you know what I mean. Ugh!

After all, it's almost over. 11 weeks to go. Hopefully, I can do this better in this last trimester. Well, enjoy every second of it seems, unreal. But, I'll do my best. To be less dramatic, emotional & irrelevant :p

Last but not least, please pray for me and this baby in my womb. I love this baby already. Even though, the process of having you, quite challenging, but I do do do love you little one. It's not that I will hate you because of what I'm going through right now. No. Not for a split in my mind I'm thinking that way. But some might think so because I allllllways mengeluh marah sedih and whatnot. It's not like that. It's just a phase for me. I got this. I can get through this. InsyaAllah. AMIN.


  1. Seems tht all the SAVOC Adiks been BZ expanding their family.
    Alhamdulillah... Smoga d permudahkn segala urusan nnti.. Aamiin

    1. HAHA kan akak kan... Berlawan2 pulak rupanya. Nak buat cemana, rezeki datang berganti2 macam pass beten :D TQ KH.. Aminnnn


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